Chronological list of my Traumatic Brain Injuries

Due to the discomfort of re-living these experiences, I found it easier to write out my injuries as opposed to repeating them verbally to those who are curious. Here are the Traumatic Brain Injuries (TBI) that play a large role in the impairments I still struggle with today:

  1. May 2006 - Accidentally punched in the back of the head and knocked unconscious resulting in 23 stitches needed on my forehead and TBI.

  2. July 2009 - (see previous post) Was hit by an oncoming driver going 60mph who ran a red light resulting in TBI and 5 years of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).

  3. December 2011 (pictured below)- Fall. Impairments included loss of the ability to speak in full sentences, impaired judgement as well as exacerbated mental health problems and short term memory loss. This was the straw that broke the camels back. After this last major head trauma, I was diagnosed with Post-Concussive Syndrome.

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The thing about concussions and TBIs is that they add up. Each one causing brain damage in different areas of the brain with lasting effects. 

A new "normal" had been created overnight. Things I used to be able to do effortlessly had now become impossible and I couldn't understand why for first couple years. After repeated TBI, I had issues such as: short term memory loss, constant headaches, fatigue, confusion, impaired judgment, personality changes, trouble focusing, insomnia, sensitivity to noise and light, delayed processing, delayed reaction time, extreme anxiety, severe depression, and suicidal thoughts/suicidal ideation. People who did know me during this time described me as "a zombie" whose eyes were lifeless and actions often time made little sense (2012-2013 in particular).

The frustration I felt with myself for not being able to do basic everyday things anymore took its toll on my self confidence. I had to learn what capabilities I still had, and which I'd have to re-learn like the concept of time management, organization, sequencing & decision-making. I was misunderstood by literally everyone in my life especially because from the outside, I still looked the same. There was no physical disability that reminded people I was struggling with cognitive disabilities.

Years later with rehabilitation and the Twitch & Destiny community as a support system, I have been able to start my journey towards getting off disability and returning back to the life goals I was working towards before I was injured.